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Friday, September 21, 2007

title:{they say " the pple that help are the pple who need help".}

yes, i really agree with that phrase. for once in like 5 weeks, i finally felt like i was like smart and that feeling feels great. going for french lecture was yet again demoralizing and i kept asking my neighbour," eh what is she talking about. what is that?". not to mention i need excruciatingly badly for both my french tests! when everyone's grades were like close to full marks.hey, i am trying okay. but i have no affinity with languages. my french sounds more like malay than anything. yes and i have 2 oral tests! omg! someone help me!

anyway, i went for visualisation tut and i din feel so dumb!i actually understood what the lecturer was saying and i actually helped this viet girl who was clueless! i actually helped her draw an entire roof!the lecturer came over to mark her diagram and said " ur ROOF is looking nice!"(cough cough, hello, u mean MY ROOF!) and i helped this girl do dimensioning! seriously! it felt so GOOOOOOOOD!!!!! this is a great contrast compared to the 1st PF tut where my ogmate had to help me do everything!yes, helping has helped me. seriously, i feel so lost in school! i feel so helpless in school, cause i keep forgetting things and i keep doing stupid things.

E.G i went to the bus-stop and i met michelle. i asked her to help me hold it and then i pulled off the cap of my teacup and it spilt over her file and my shoes!(lucky she was there to ease my embarrassment) or the time, where i forgot which week my tut was and went on the wrong week.or the time i din know which tut class i was in and my lecturer wanted us to get into sub-grps in the lecture hall. or the time, where i wanted to change my ans to a test and my eraser flew off the table!

i need to help pple to make myself feel smart. that is quite a weird thought, but seriously! its very true. ky is once again happy! cheap happiness, but its okay! its enough! sometimes, i look forward, to going for statistics lecture cause i get about half an hour of seeing dee, van, mich! if i am lucky sometimes, tb and ky. and on a very lucky day, my hot doctor. hahaha. eye-candies keep me happy!haha. think that was the incentives of going to AC sometimes. science feels so homely!

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